mm. third post for the day, including the one at 1am.
ive been pondering on loadsa stuffs.
i feel so silly, and yet angry.
silly for crying, angry for crying.
i was the one who gave it up.
so i should feel happy now.
urhgs. who'm i trying to kid. im stiu unhappy.
i know its not anyone's fault.
i just..hate myself for always making such stupid decisions.

ive been alone at home the whole day today. went out in the morning to collect my cert & meet the girls. met hk there. dammit. i almost felt like crying while hugging her. felt like telling her everything. but i dont know.. the feeling just wasnt right. she seems more busy with her band&prisku frens thou. shrugs. went home after that. hated it. i hated the silence. i hated the loneliness. i hated everything. just looking at my handphone reminds me of it. i just simply dont get it. even when ___ did the same thing i didnt even react that strongly. now? i practically cried my lungs out right infront of my screen. i really dont get it. im supposed to be a ______. but now, am i? mayb to ___, i am. but to me? i dont know. owells. i dont see the point in thinking too much anyways, theres no turning back now. i just wanna get my mind off ___.

on a lighter tone, i just found out a few days ago that wanlin actually had a boyfriend. but it lasted only for 5days. reason being the guy thought she wasnt enthusiastic enough. see. this once again proves my theory of guys being total jerks as boyfriends.