i woke up today,
and the first thing i did,
was clear my inbox of ___ messages.
it was..hard.
i dont know what made me do it too, just, felt like it.
but the moment i deleted it, i regretted it. now all thats left are only a pathetic few.
i feel so silly.
ive been crying so many countless times these few days.
and you know i dont cry easily, so..you know how bad i feel now.
i have like, 6windows on msn, chatting.
none belongs to ___.
how pathetic can that be.
do you really have to make things go that way?

dammit. just what will make me stop? i want company, but im not willing to talk. i know its selfish of me. im really sorry guys. i just..i dont know. i dont even know what i want now. hurhur. stupid. this whole thing is just plain stupidity. im guessing he has an idea who im talking about, just he's acting dumb. but WHO CARES. i dont. if its really that way, i dont even think we can just be friends. man. what am i talking about. shitzx. im outta here.

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