its 3.50am on a thursday morning. just cant sleep. dont know why. went alicia's hse as usual on sat. i dono why, but it reminds me of things. AND, i really love alicia. she guessed what happened even without me saying anything. i just, sorta broke down again that day. i really find it so stupid. i dont know. i really dont know. i was smiling, and crying. and i was just, i dont know. just going to her house reminds me of him. she explained lotsa things to me, so im now..thinking alot. so alright, he's a jerk. mayb jw's worse, but yea. no doubt. he's a big fat total jerk. all i know is, im sorta recovering..bit by bit..

sku stuffs helping me thou. loadsa things to be done, kept me busy, kept my mind off things. ive been wondering thou, what if..i mean IF, if that really happened..maybe..things wouldve ended up a different way. at least, i wont feel as bad as now. shrugs. owells. its over. four years. gone just like that. funny eh.. how time seems to pass so fast then, and pass so slowly now. owells. four years...sighs.

theres been alot going on thou. im just, lazy to elaborate. sighs. esp the IG stuffs. i realise my whole of july and august is like, so packed already. sku's gonna reopen nxt week..im gonna get real bz, with all the on-going events. oh yea. reminds me. i think i gotta wear formal wear to sku next friday. omg. hais. theres a Annual Meeting or whatever on that day. starts at 5. and attire is formal. dammit. plus we gotta meet the GetSlim/GetFat ppl (either one. cant rmb) on the same day at 4pm. we end sku at 4pm that day. so lets say the 4pm thing takes around 1hr, or mayb more, then mus faster go down for the meeting. omg. so rush. sighs. and the meeting's until 730 if im not wrong. ... im gonna be so bored. theres just so many things to be done...most importantly, i gotta shop for FORMAL wear now. darn.

gotta make announcements to the whole yr1 cohort on wednesday too. with xiaomin. omg. wth. they are so not going to cooperate with us luhs. so ps! stand infront and talk. ... i cant bear to imagine.

went for the IG meeting today(wednesday) too. and i was laughed at all the way. T.T cos first, they laughed at the way i was holding the knife.(i dont know how to use it properly). then, taohuay pronounced josiah's name as jo-sai-yer. then they all laughed. i didnt get the joke, and they laughed even harder. -.- the next one was i said taohuay was mean, then he said add pepper. i didnt get this too. and they were all laughing so hard at me. hahx. cant help laa. i really dono wad. seriously. i dont even think it was that funny after they explained it to me lo. then they said they weren't laughing at the joke, they were laughing at me. omg. hahs. ohyea. stiu got. i said potatoes make you stupid, then they said its true, cos i said i love potatoes. T.T omg. im getting bullied everywhere i go laa. cries.

alrights. its now 4.12am in the morning. think i'l just try to get some sleep. alicia&god marmie they all going to genting at 6am. so i guess they wouldve woken up by now. sighs. envious. i wanna go tooo. but i wasnt there when they were asking, so they presumed i dont wanna go. )): owells. least alicia&shawn would b getting stuffs for me thou. (: hekiheki

going now. nites. sweet dreams. take lotsa care.

watashiminichiru;idontcarryout;yakusowuyagate;izzukanokagayakisuteta;kaeranaii

in short, guys are still jerks.

whatever.


baby so cute.