life is just full of controversies. i think my thoughts and wants are also quite conflicting. its like i know i shouldnt, but i want. i know its normal, but i hope its not. i know i should, but i cant bring myself to. whatthehell. its just not fair. so not fair. but what can i do? life is just so unfair. why should i be writhing in pain when you're happily leading your life. i should stay happy to. IM.HAPPY. dammit.

oh just shutthehellup.

im going to emo now.