i am sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry. i know no matter how many times i say, it wouldnt be enough. but i just cant sit back and see you like that. you are my best friend. my bestest ever. i want you to lead a happy life. a life happier than mine. you cant suffer like that. you can never.

i feel so freaking bad now. i know you will be crying like crazy. i know i know. im sorry. i really am. i dont even know if im doing the right thing. what if what i think isnt that? what if what i did just ruined any chance they have left?

im sorry. i love you girl. no matter what. please forgive me. im sorry for making you cry. really am.


i know i think too much sometimes. i know i can be such a bitch. im sorry. im learning, to take things easy. give me time. bear with me, please. i know it might be a little too much to ask. but i need you by my side. you cant ever leave. you can never.


thats just great! i reformatted. like, FINALLYYYYYYYYYY.

it made me realise that the reason why i couldnt reformat the other time was not because of the pooter itself, nor the disk. its the user :| hahaha. im actually supposed to open this stupid recovery program and click to reformat but instead i just inserted the disk and waited for it to perform miracles! lol. nevermind. at least i gained a new mother for my pooter in exchange for repairing! (: the process was fairly quick. around an hour & a half or so. mmmm. i feel so clean now. for my pooter, that is. like all the dirty viruses and stuffs are GONEEEE. its functioning so well! like a NEWBORN. see. huishan my newborn bigger, and better :D

kay. blogger's cocked up. im gonna go change to lj soon. SOON. goodbye. i shall do my tutorials already. YAWNN. i feel like sleeping. ):


I HAVE JUST PLANNED MY STUDY TIMETABLE! now its a matter of following through.

now that i planned it all out, i realised we dont exactly have a lot of subjects to study for ah. all the more should score well right. hokay. i shall do my best. & score 4Zs. HAHAHA. crazy.

i have a dozen things to do, and i must make sure i do it tmr. first, reformat my pooter. secondly, complete all my tutorials. thirdly, start studying. i dont know why. i feel so.. out of place now. GAH. im just plain bored i think. but i dont have any wish to start on any homeworkkkk! this is stupid. im sleeping my life away! OMGGGGGGGGG. i need to buck up. the feeling of exams havent even hit me yet. WAKE UPPPPP! ):