rejoice! all projects and presentations are finally over!!! you have seriously no idea how happy i am about it. least i dont have to worry about psychology presentation even in new year :D but! i screwed up the presentation thou. pfft. couldnt answer the teacher's questions ): i almost died though, 'cos psycho and ob presentation clashed. its like, one directly after another. PLUS! i was doing motivation for both subjects..damn scared that i would get both mixed up. hahaha. didnt dare to memorise my script cos of that. practically wrote my whole speech on the cuecards. hahaha. imagine if i start talking about emo kids in psychology and mops in ob. omg. that like, so dead laa. lol.

stuffs are happening, 2 have gone. im shocked. was already debating that when all this just started, but i decided to hang on. now that things have evolved to this, i really feel like going too. dont know anymore. everything is just happening at once. i cant cope. its like, i see no point in staying. not really because of the exact reason behind all this, but what it told me after all this happened. people changed, attitudes changed. they start showing their other side, and i dont like that. precisely because i wanted to give it my all and try one last time with you all, but now.. since you've given up. i really cant find anymore reason to continue. frankly, you deserve to stay more than me. and if ure gone, i dont know why i should stay. this really isnt fun. we started out with a simple reason, a simple purpose. its not supposed to be this way. i just hate playing p*******

江山易改，本性难移。可真可真。
some are just too blinded to see further. i feel sad for you.

*please note. last 2 paras are talking about different things. dont think too much.


its 12am. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY! i love you (:

i agree with aaron on this. per qualcuno che pensa un lotto, un ure bello stupido. hahaha. random.

[12.12am]


sshgi.. if yuo dtno atpecc, dtno atpecc. dtno dgar osreht, nro ues God's nema in vnia. mi tderi of egninialpx aydaerl, adn i wtno brehto mflesy to ceunitno frehtru. dtno fecro yflesruo to atpecc, if u atner wgnilli to. ngnihto gdoo wlli cemo otu of it. pesael aosl rtcelfe on yflesruo. i tknih yev'uo gto as myna psmelbor as em.

went out to celebrate mama's birthday in advance. cos its supposedly tmr, but i have project soo.. really feel bad about it ): ive recently learnt..to treasure the people around me. esp after today. as mama said, there are some people in life, that u cannot get along with. so if you dont like the person, just forget about it. when there is a need for communication, you can speak politely, and i meant it really. not in a sacarstic way. in other cases, its selective sight (: its the ways of living, in a society. kinda like the 'hi bye althou i dont like u and u dont like me' thing. i think. im growing up. learning about what kinds of people are out there, what methods to deal with regarding certain kinds of people. i will change. not because of you, but because of myself, and my mama. i really think, she's a very clever and understanding person. ahh. i shall learn from her from now on.

LOVE YOU MUMMY! :D

oh and i think, admist all the happenings, i forgot to blog about something. cheryl got 10 for Os. hahaha. congrats! and ive just only realised she spent her 1st 3weeks in TJC. lol. looks like she's going to continue there thou. how cool. her school is so near me, and i didnt even realise. hahaha. ohwells. good luck there cousin! (:

suddenly feel like so long since ive last went out with hk, fenn and xy they all. wow. its been a year since i first joined poly. so fast.. i should jio you guys out soon eh? hahaa. sorry for always not being able to make it to gatherings. i know u all grumbling already. i shall plan one this hols then, to make up for it. teehees. :D

[9.41pm]


wanted to blog about something. but thinking again, i dont think you deserved to be mentioned in my own private space. no point. waste my energy typing only.

stuffs happened in the meeting today, and i learnt quite a few things from it. good and bad, pros and cons. not that bad an experience on the overall. but still, a few things bugging me. had a little talk with my mum about recent happenings, and i really think she makes a lot of sense. which was also what made me decide not to blog about that. been thinking about what she said, and my mind cleared alot. she taught me on ways of life. hahaha. sounds chim. but yea. she analysed with me. really no point getting so angry over such stuffs. waste of energy. might as well concentrate it on upcoming tests and exams. even more worth it. as mama says, darenbujixiaorenguo. magnanimous, in another sense. just ignore. the problem would continue existing if you emphasize on it. sometimes, leaving both parties alone would be the best solution. (:

OKAY. exams exams exams, coming rightttt upp. gonna be busy busy busy. today's IG meeting dragged till 830. omg. so in the end i missed both MOS and prawning. how great. ):

having thoughts of closing the blog again. either that or moving to livejournal. least i can lock up posts there. ahh.. we shall see.

[1.53am]


an 'exciting' day. shant elaborate. just i think the curry on your shirt joke aint gonna work that well anymore. hahah.

ALRIGHTS. im in a dilemma now. opportunity cost. to go MOS with the clique or go fishing for prawns with cousin. kinda tired to go for MOS cos its really late..we're going home at 3plus in the morning. AND, im supposed to save money! secondly, if i go for prawning, i think i'l be very bright. cos cousin and cousin's bf going. PLUS, cousin bf's 2 friends (who are gay partners) are also going. SO BRIGHT LAH. omg. i duno what to do!! ): if not for the lightbulb issue, i think i wouldve chosen the prawning man. but i end school at around 4plus tmr. and prawning is meeting at 7plus 8. MOS meeting at 7 to have dinner. HOWHOW? ):

i shall see how tomorrow. damn. ive got this really strong feeling i'l end up staying at home in the end just cos im too lazy to go anywhere else. =x

[12.05am]


i realised something. the more i think of something, the more it wont happen. ergo, thou shalt not think about it anymore (:

wsa dnam pdessi whti teh btse fdneir tyado. leki wstah yruo fgnikaer pmelbor. i ma sylsuoir tderi fo yuo aydaerl. i jtsu hepo ts'rm MBS pnoitatneser gseo wlle.. nto so mhcu ttah seh csera tuoh.. btu i ryllae ndee my A fro MBS. mnia emax wdluo syleru pllu em dnwo leki nstu. pesael. weka pu. dtno be os shsifle. yuo aer aydaerl 18. kwon hwo to ste yruo pseitiroir rthgi.

today's just a really really bad day. things arent supposed to be progressing this way. im just feeling kinda stressed out now. cant believe im gonna have my psycho exam soon. seems like ytd when i just attended the first lesson. sighs. AND, i'l have to get my mama's birthday present toooo. as well as korkor's 21st bday present. think im gonna get him a PSP. omg. im sooooo going to be brokeee ): worse still, exam timetable's out. sorta clashes with korkor's birthday party. omgzxzx. exam starts on friday and his birthday is on saturday. hahah. plus its OB on monday. pfft. i sense trouble. most prolly playing more than studying over at the chalet. oh damn ):

alrights. gotta go. have to complete my MBS presentation slides. byebye! (:

[9.27pm]


you have no right to make us endure this.
there is a limit to everything, and i hope u bear that in mind.
you are seventeen. stop acting like a spoilt brat.
GROW UP.


dont care, dont want, dont fancy. if you so fancy playing them, count me out. go join it yourself.

many things happened, a tad too much for me to handle. i was in school ytd to do MBS. started from 3 and ended at 9. recieved a call from a particular someone, and i kinda broke down. i think he got a shock. hahah. sorry. its just, the stress from projects and all. now this. i didnt really feel any point in continuing in this. im really really tired already. all i want is to spend my 3years in school peacefully. but luckily, i picked myself up. i agree with what you said, and im willing to try once more. lets give it our all, as a team. we go girls. we'l show them what we're made of.

i cant believe my saturday was gone just like that. spent my whole day in school yesterday chionging MBS with shar. but she left halfway. lol. luckily eric and jo were there to help me with it. haha. and a BIG THANKYOU to eric for staying so late just cos i was using his laptop! :D couldnt use the labs cos it closed at 4.45pm. ahwells. gonna do some finalising later again using his laptop. lol. reached home at 11 ytd. freaking late. then the moment i got home, started replying emails and stuffs, did psycho quiz (i was damn lucky i could still do. deadline was 12am i did it at 1am :D), edited macro article, tried doing some slides for MBS presentation, went through macro presentation slides, wrote down the list of things to discuss on fri's IG meeting.. OMG. i think ive freaking alot of things to do. and i cant believe i stayed up till 3am just to do those. =/

eh but i spent like, another 1hour or so talking to someone soo, hahha. crazy. i cant believe i chatted that long. so late summor. but alright lah. he analysed the situation more clearly to me about the things we're gonna do, and i have confidence in all of us (:

and i realised ive suddenly alot of project presentations coming up.. monday's submission of MBS and macro, presentation of macro.. thursday's presentation of MBS. OMG. everything is crashing down on me all at once. im really really going to enjoy my holidays to the fullest man.

okok. i just woke up like, 20mins ago, and i havent bathed nor brushed my teeth. HAHAHA. so dirty. k la. gotta go prepare to go out already. projects projects and more projects. ): REJOICE! its finishing :D

[11.42am]


something happened today.

its all plastered over your nics. went to all your blogs and saw you guys all blogging about that too. CHEERUP LAH! its outta our control. no point worrying too much about it. and siaowei, dont blame yourself too much. they wanted names and u gave. nth wrong. dont take it too hard on yourself k! its alright de. (:

but i agree abit thou. he can come, but abit unfair, for someone to go just for that. ahwells. beyond my control too. dont think too much. JUST CHEERUP EVERYONE! (:

[1.09am]


phew. just finished chionging econs. tired. least one's down. hahaha. felt guilty. cos i havent been helping much for this subject. ): econs is just sooo not my type. ive always had problems with it. sighs. but at least i think i put in effort today (:

AND I JUST REALISED I DONT HAVE TIME FOR MY NEW YEAR SHOPPING!! oh damn. next week's project deadline so this weekend's out. following after is psycho project presentation so that weekend's out too. the following weekend's psycho exam, so its a confirmed no-no. the following week? chinese new year. OMG!! totally no time can ):

alrights. i actually dont have anything to do now. and im feeling uneasy. think im forgetting something. oh and ive updated the hongkong pictures in the photo album already. haha. only a selected few lah. kinda dumb photos thou.

kays. outta here. byebye.

[9.41pm]


ive had the WIERDEST dream ever. oh yucks. i cant even bear to think why i dreamt of that. ewwww. disgusting. its just so IMPOSSIBLE. ahahs. oh and i just realised i forgot to clarify something. to those who were present for alex's bday. mm. dont be mistaken please. i dont like him, least not anymore. just, when he talks to me about stuffs like that..its a tingly feeling lah. a sour feeling. abit.. i duno how to describe. but im pretty sure i dont like him anymore, i think.

dont understand myself anymore. oh what am i just hoping to get. its like, what am i doing?? i duno. sucks to be like that. HAHA. wait paitently. it will come, if its supposed to. thats why, i think i shouldnt do anything. lets just focus. projects are already pushing me to the limits. whats more i have an exam in TWO weeks. omggg.

cousin fell and broke his ankle yesterday during badminton. poor thing. saw the xray and the crack was from his ankle up till half his leg. wonder how he fell. haha. ohwells. get well soon cousin! :]

OKAY! ive got dinner later. farewell dinner for aunty sarah. she's going back to adelaide already, soon. so fast! she came here on christmas eve. just too bad she couldnt stay for chinese new year. thats when all the fun starts. loll :] maybe i'l go get the pictures from alicia's memory card too. the photos taken in hongkong. plus ive still got jo's share of videos and pictures and eth taken on newyear's eve. ahh. nice. ive got new stuffs to add to my collection alr :]

kays! stop here. oh and, i found old UVPHS vids at joyce's blog. including our alumni item at SingOut concert last year. ahh. brings back memories..

have trouble posting vids but..

this one's during CCA OpenHouse this year..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=08Q-nDaC2ik
SingOut 2007 alumni's performance..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eMMeo2mzqZo
Ms Chung's farewell plus practice for Razamatazz concert.. she was in the middle. ):
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_dQWkXv7Vh8
Our batch's farewell party. we were performing. left was us, right were seniors.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rk6BG2WN9kI
another performance by alumni at SingOut 2007
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MYWI_cFEuT8
yiyuan performing at choir camp. not really a big fan of his but, yea.. haha. he's from my school's choir
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5ovpSpGcs_0
Indescribable- CCA OpenHouse 207
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P_mNoj2cZ5g
stupid things we do at camps.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3rYW62VWucU
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5EtKLzrZ5Nw
HSM practice. you might have to tune up volume abit to hear music.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xm929c9CVmM

AWWW! i really really miss choir ):

[2.52pm]


oh yay. i just did my iq n eq test.

my iq was 107. eq 94. hahaha. iq was above average and eq below average. omg. but thinking back, its 1.47am and my brain is not functioning that properly. lol. alrights. shall blog again. byebye!

[1.47am]


currently talking to A PIECE OF TISSUE. hahaha. he is SUPER ANNOYING! i wonder, am i really that nice to bully or what. EVERYONE bullies me in the same way. think i should consider getting angry someday. LOL. i cant imagine.

alrights. got back all my grades for midsem alr.

OB-C+
Business Stats- B+
FA-A
MBS-A
MacroEcons-A

yup. stupid OB and bizstats. i cant believe jo could get full marks for bizstats. hahaha. and shar got top in class for OB. damn. why do i have such smart friends. i look seemingly stupid in comparison. lol. but overall still good lah. got full marks for FA qn2. so proud of myself. i thought i screwed up that section. thought i screwed up MBS too. turned out i was correct. bwahahaha. and i even managed to get an A. omg. unbelievable. =D

projects are a serious killer now. FA's settled but theres MBS and econs left. OB too. mbs and econs are due on the same date, which is like, 1 week later. ob's later by a few more days. damn. stupid projects. every single day im spending my time in school up till 7plus just to do projects. hahaha. even my saturdays man. omg. im sooo going to play like crazy during the holidays.

ALRIGHTS. that annoying tissue is still talking to me. its 2.45am alr. i think i should go sleep soon. doing prj tmr too. can you imagine?! MY WHOLE NICE SATURDAY GONEEE. just like that. sighs.

[2.50am]


I confess that in 2007 I...

( ) kissed in the snow
( ) celebrated Halloween
( ) kissed in the rain
(x) had your heart broken
(x) broke someone else's heart
( ) had a stalker
( ) mooned someone
(x) went over the minutes on your cellphone
(x)had a good somewhat relationshipwith someone
( ) someone questioned your sexual orientation
( ) had a relationship with someone you'll never forget
(x) done something you've regretted
( ) lost faith in love
( ) kissed under mistletoe

SCHOOL
( ) took an honors/advanced class
(x) broke the dress code
( ) sent to the principles office for misbehavior
( )got straight A's
(x) met one teacher you really like
(x) met one teacher you really hated
( ) failed a class
(x) skipped school
(x) did something you were proud of
( ) discovered a new talent
(x) embarrassed yourself in front ofthe class
( ) fell in love with a teacher
( ) intentionally tripped someone at school
( ) got lead in the school play
( ) made a varsity team
(x) were involved in something you'll never forget

OTHER
( ) painted a picture
( ) wrote a poem
(x) ran a mile
( ) shopped at Hollister or Abercrombieand Fitch
( )posted a blog onMySpace
(x) listened to music you couldn't stand
(x) went to a sleepover
( ) went camping
(x) threw a surprise party
(x) laughed till you cried
( ) laughed till you peed in your pants
( ) flirted shamelessly
(x) visited a foreign country
( ) budged in a line of waiting people
(x) told someone you were busy whenyou weren't
( ) cooked a disastrous meal
(x) lost something important to you
(x) lied about how old you were
( ) prank called someone

RANDOM
1. How many people of the opposite sex have made you cry this year?
two.
2. Have you ever broken the law?
imma good girl.
3. Have you ever kissed a smoker?
noooooo.
4. Is it really like licking anashtray?
hahah. if i did, i guess so.
5. What color shirt are you wearing rite now?
black.
6. What's the weather like outside?
windy.
7. Can you see your phone?
yuppp
8. Do you have any pets?
hamsterr. red baboon :}
9. What are you listening to right now?
Get Me Bodied- Beyonce
10. What color are your eyes?
dark brown.
11. What size shoe do you wear?
5/6/7. depending on the shoe.
12. Have you ever been called a bitch?
YES. sharmila. that bimbo. hahah.
13. How about a fag?
nopes. im sucha sweetie :D
14. Over the summer were you tan?
think i got a lil'
15. What are you doing?
talking, smsing, chatting, blogging, listening to music
16. What did you do yesterday?
school, made a new friend.
17. How many times have you seen your favorite movie?
a gazillion times. i think it was huan zhu gege. LOLZZZ.
18. what's your favorite holiday to celebrate?
decembers.
19. Which one of your siblings do you look like?
only have one. and i dont look like him.
20. Do you have a new year'sresolution yet?
coolness. i have it.

ok im adding another thing to my newyear resolution. i shall keep my mouth and comments to myself alr. i realise, my mouth shoots off quite often at the wrong people for the wrong things. mm. time to change that habit :D

[9.49pm]


alex was officially 18years old on 7th Jan.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!!

hahah. we went out after school that day to celebrate his birthday. it was monday. feel so badddd. we made him wait quite longg. hehe. 'cos it was the deadline for passing up of FA project also. and we kinda made quite a few amendments to our project and took time soo.. yea. he left early what. he left immediately after class to go meet his friend and collect yet more presents. ahaha.

so we met him at around 6plus 7 at cityhall mrt. poor boyyy. he was there waiting for so long already. like so mean to make him wait so long, alone, on his 18th birthday. SORRY ALEX! ookkk then us 3 girls gave the excuse that jo had menses and we went toilet then they went ahead. we sneaked back to breadtalk to get the cake. after that jo&ann went topshop to get the present while i went to meet them supposedly to distract their attention :D

ate swensens. played stupid games. hahah. stupidly funny. we played band names, singer names, food, body parts, general items, fruits. whatever u think of we played it. hahah. oh! and we ordered this icecream thing for alex. and since it was his birthday, it was on the house. so niceee! >:} he got smashed on the face with some whipped cream there by eric thou. lolzzz. then we shifted outside to prepare for PART TWO!

I SINCERELY BELIEVE IN RETRIBUTION. rofl. jo&me ran infront so as not to let him notice the cake and to prepare to surprise him. who knows they were behind DISCUSSING TO SMASH THE BOTH OF US! omggg. that idiots. then when alex came he acted like he was surprised in a really FAKE and EXGAGGERATED way can! lol. stupid. then they purposely made ME hold the cake for alex, then smash me. IDIOTS!! hahahahh. lucky i run fast luhs! in the end eric's plan backfire. alex got to smash him first :DD hahahah! damn hilarious i tell u. then when finally eric pinned alex down and managed to smash him, geezie went to smash ERIC when eric thought he was gonna smash alex. HAHAHA! YOU SHOUDA SEEN HIS FACE MAN. he was totally betrayed. LOLLLLL. see! this is what u get for trying to smash me. hurhur :D

after that went to somewhere else to eat the cake. cos they were afraid we would get caught. we pratically dirtied the whole place up. even the shop's glass pane. hahah. went to sit at the long stairs facing the esplanade. they suggested to try sneaking into DXO thou, but so not worth! $23 and we're only going to stay for an hour. tsktsk. so we sat on the stairs to finish up the rest of the cake and played truth or dare. LOLLL. i tell you. you can never know what is in those people's heads man. we did seriously stupid things there.

pictures for newyeareve is uploaded already. click here. but we took mostly videos thou..and im kinda forbidden to upload them BUT! thou shalt find thy way to upload thy pictures. TIAN WU JUE REN ZHI LU. bwahahahah. :}

long enough. shall blog another day. byebye

[9.23pm]


hello!
how great. im sick
wasted my whole sunday
its another boring day

ok i have nothing to say. byebye.

[10.27pm]


mm. havent been blogging for so long alr. cant blame. i have a boring life. hurhur. its been like, projects all the way..and we still cant balance fa!! hmmmmm... im feeling abit guilty thou. didnt really contribute alot for macro tdy too. oh damn. i just hateee econs. :/ alright. i hate studying. teehees.

oh and, dont keep saying im emo alr. im not luhs. just feeling so disappointed with a few people. not in the mood for anything these days. dont even have the mood to go out with my clique. this is bad. i'l have to start getting my mood back alr. if not they wont even bother to ask me out next time. ): ohwells. thats life for you. haha.

recently did the IQ and EQ test for psycho. i got like, 95 for my EQ test. relatively low thou, seeing the average was 85-110. but it feels like i scored quite high thou. haha. mm. got higher for my IQ test. forgot the score but im certain it was above 100. ahwells.

i realised i havent talked about my new year resolution too. ok here goes,

-improve my relationship with korkor
-spend more time with my family
-try to improve my general knowledge and not get laughed at that often, althou i dont know how, but thats another topic altogether :]
-curb my temper. dont get irritated so easily
-GPA 3.8, which is close to impossible, but i will try really hard.
-be nicer to my friends
-dont talk so much. i think im too talkative sometimes
-dont be too trustful. people come people go, no one ever really stays. its always been and always will be like that.
-ok the last one will be left for myself! :]

ok thats enough. theres project again at 9am tmr. sleep early, i might wake early. byebye.

[9.57pm]